First time -
May 30th 2009, 10:54 AM
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ok. so I've never really self harmed to any extend before, though i have been close to in the past. But today I just gave in and did it. And I'm ashamed to say it felt so good and i got scared so ran from my house but i ended up going back and I did it again. I drew quite a bit of blood and it burns like hell but it feels good! :s
And the thing is, yesterday was an awesome day as I spent it with my best friends and bf and it was soooo good. But my stupid f**king step dad had to go and ruin it. He keeps yelling at me and calling me a liar and having a go at me for every little thing. My brothers are ignoring me and my mum is in hospital with my lil sis. I just don't know what to do with myself and all my thoughts go back to the razor upstairs! :s I'm sorry, I don't know if this is triggering or what just a bit of a rant :s