I don't know how to start and this might be really long so I'm hoping you guys wouldn't get bored reading it till the end.. I've been keeping this to myself for a very long time and I can't take it anymore.
The main problem is, I have a boyfriend whom let's just keep with the letter H and my ex whom we'll keep as A. The problem is, I love them both. Yes, I still have feelings for my ex although I'm with my boyfriend right now. I don't know how to start this.. But here goes,
my ex cheated on me for a whole month so obviously, I broke up with him. A few weeks after the break up, I started dating H. I honestly don't know what came into me to actually start dating again but thinking about it now, I think its because I want to show my ex that I can have someone better than him. Turns out that after a couple of months dating, H and I ended up being together. Everything seemed fine, he's a good guy and he treats me so well unlike my ex. But there comes a point where my ex and I starts talking again that my feelings are coming back. I get so confused and sometimes, I'm thinking of breaking up with my boyfriend and going back to my ex. Like today, I knew that I failed algebra and I had to attend summer school... I felt so down and needed someone to talk to, I went online hoping to chat with my boyfriend but unfortunately, he's not online. Ironically, it was my ex whose online. So I started talking to him and he made me feel better. He also made me feel like breaking up with my boyfriend and going back to him AGAIN. I'm so confused. My ex and I were really open to each other, like REALLYYY open. We could basically act like monkeys in the mall and not one of us will feel shy about it. But with my boyfriend now, its not like that. He's taking a lot of time to open up to me, he couldn't even tell me that his cousin will stay in jail for the next 25 years because of bringing in DRUGS. I tried talking to my bestfriend about this and all she told me is that, I just need to give it time with H so that we could both feel comfortable and open to each other and that I should stop talking to my ex.
Please help. I'm really confused. I don't even know who weighs more in my heart...