[AshtrayHeart]

Hey there, I'm sorry your feeling so down and don't like the way you look. But trust me no one is perfect everyone has there faults and issues and you'll find those people you consider beautiful are just as self concious as you are and they have the same problems as you do. Your not an less important than anyone else and to many people your probably more important. Try not to pull yourself down, I'm sure your lovely the way you are and I'm sure your beautiful.
If you say your face is average and things like that you probably just have natural beauty and by the sounds of it I don't know how old you are but your probably alot more mature for your age and people will be intimidated by that, not to make you feel less important but you'll find someone thats at your standard in age.
And about abusing yourself, you don't need to do that you Just want too, you shouldn't feel like you have too, what makes you want to do it?
PM if you need too