Hey Lauren. I'm more than sure many rape victims can relate to this. I know I can for various reasons. I was 5 when it happened to me. Even though back then it didn't truly effect me, it only really hit last year. It made me think about how pointless my "virginity" was. But, I got over that part of it. Though I've been struggling again with the whole "sex is special" aspect of things. I've been doing the same thing as you; Going to different guys for sexual relief.
If you ever need to talk,
PM me. I'd like to listen.