Hello, sorry if I'm just barging into this conversation. I'd thought I'd give my support to you Laura. I've been watching this thread from the moment you created it, I've been watching this conversation going.
What I'd like to say is that you're very much the opposite of a coward, I admire you for your struggle and not giving into despair. You're going through a long, rough patch and you're not giving up, plus you have the support of your friends who love you very much. You're a very strong person and I'm sure you are a nice person. Just remember you are not without hope, as you have proved it yourself from realizing that life is beautiful. You have my support.
I'll give you my MSN email address if you have MSN messenger;
phillips_screwdriver@hotmail.com if you'll want to talk. I'm a good listener and give great advice.