Ok. I have BPD. it is not as bad as it seems. Try out the links that Cresendo gave you. You might find them helpful. BPD is hard to explain because everyone is different and everyone has a different personality.
There are feelings of abandonment and often you do ingadge in self manipulative behaviors. Often BPD can lead to thoughts of suicide.
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