Well, first off, talking to your councellor is a good first step. And you'll have to be open and honest for them to be able to help you in any way.
Second, take a look at the "Alternatives" thread. I mean, I'm guessing you
SH when you're worse off? Either way, the thread covers alternatives for all the reasons one would
SH.
Hope this helps, and I know you can get through this.