I should have listened to all of my friends when they told me the guy I was dating was kind of strange.
You see, I've been dating this guy Ryan for the past 2 months or so...we go on dates a lot, and I at first thought he was the sweetest, kindest, cutest guy on the planet. I liked him so, so much.
On our first date he asked if he could hold my hand, on the second he asked if he could kiss me...I was so flattered that he thought of my feelings first. Even on our third date, when he was driving me home, he asked me if I wanted to go to his place to have sex with him. I obviously said no, but I was still glad that he asked me nicely. He proceeded to ask me if I wanted to have sex after every date. I kept saying no.
But then the sixth (or seventh?) date came along. When he was driving me home, it went down kind of like this:
Him-Hey, do you wanna come over to my house and have sex?
Me-No, sorry hon. I don't want to have sex until I'm one-hundred percent in love or until I'm married.
Him-Don't you love
me?
Me-Oh...well, I like you a lot, but I don't think I'm in love with you yet...we've only been dating for a few weeks, and...
Him-JESUS!!!! (he turns the car around and starts driving really fast)
Me-Huh? What are you doing Ryan?
(He doesn't answer and drives to the junk yard, where no body lives or works within like 8 miles of the place)
Me-Why are we here, Ry?
Him-URG!!! Shut UP!!!
Me-What's wrong with you?!
Him-What's with YOU?! You F%$ING TEASE! Get in the back seat. NOW!
Me-No! Ryan, why are you being like this?!
Him-I said GET IN THE BACK SEAT!
And he proceeds to open my side door, push me out, and pull me by my hair into the back seat.
Then he grabs my boobs. When I push him away, he grabs my wrist and stares at me with blank, cynical eyes. And he says "Shut up, stop resisting, and I won't hurt you."
He undressed me, fondled me, raped me, made me masturbate while he watched, and raped me again. I was crying the whole time.
Then he took me home and told me that I was going to go out with him as long as he wanted me and we would have sex after every date. He said if I told anyone, he'd hurt me or someone I love.
So I did what I was told because I don't want him to hurt me or anyone else. My parents seem to think I'm in love with him.
But I hate him with every fiber of my being and he's hurt me and raped me over and over. I pray to the Lord every day that he doesn't give me some horrible disease or kill me after he's done with me forever.
I know I wasn't suppose to tell anyone, but we've gone out almost every other day since the first time he raped me and I can't take it anymore. I needed to tell you guys, because I can trust you...I just hope he doesn't find this.
Please someone help me.
