I can completely understand where your coming from. I almost killed somebody when I was thirteen and thought about getting back at people throughout High School. Somehow I made it through. I'm still really angry and hold resentment towards people. I'm a lot like Batman in that sense. The 'tests' suck dude, they do and there's no doubt about that - but, I like to think they give a person a sense of survival. We can survive
anything whereas others who haven't been tested will probably be the first to die off because they've had it easy.
It also depends on what area you're in. I consider many people in the areas I grew up to be inhuman, just trash there to make me invisible. I went out to LA, a place where I felt at home, and for some reason - I was finally part of the pack; took me a while to learn this and acknowledge it because I was used to these "inhuman monsters disguised as humans" I had spent the majority of my life around... so it could just be the place you are in too. Because, others are free to argue, certain places are just breeding grounds for jerks and you might be stuck in one of them... but, then move out - find the place that's home to you. You'd love city life - nyc, California, Florida; I've even heard Texas has great people rather than jerks too due to being raised with high morals instead of being judgmental.
Things'll get better man. I used to have the same outlook as you, merely couple years ago, so I know what it's like - now I see there's a bigger world out there and you can & will find your place. Be strong, you
are strong for surviving - stronger than most - this might sound corny, but use what you have for good; no one wants to be the bad guy, no matter how tempting it might be.
