[confused_teen_inlove93]

When I was a kid I was raped twice. The first time by one of my brother friends and the second time for 6 years by my dad. I had to start taking sleeping pills 3 years ago because I would have dreams about it and Id be up most of the night afraid to sleep. I just started talking about it a year ago. Ive been trying to deal with it and move on with my life, but everytime I get to where I think I have moved on my mom brings it up again. She keeps saying I need to get over it and move on. Ive been to many consoulors and all they did was give me anti depressants that dont help at all. My bf does know about it and after I told him he said he would do anything he could to help me through it. Ever since it happened Ive hated myself and blamed myself for letting it happen. I know it wasnt my fault but I still blame myself. Ive let it run my life for way to long so how can I deal with it and move on.