[Jen]

Hey Alice,

You definitely are experiencing some pretty unhealthy behaviors with food. It doesn't sound like your symptoms fit neatly into one of the ED titles, but that's okay--most people with EDs don't fit neatly in, either. Symptoms are messy and can cover a range of things. The reason you are binging and purging is because your body has been starved. It needs food regularly, so if you're not giving the food to it, it's going to try to make up for what it lost--and that's where the binge comes in. Then, you panic, and purge. Try eating regular meals, frequently, and you will find the binging/purging will decrease.

Keep asking until someone listens to you about seeing a specialist. Are you seeing any doctors at all right now? Let them know that this is a big problem for you at the moment and you need help for it before you end up back in the hospital. Keep reaching out--someone will listen.

Our bodies need food; that's the bottom line. You need to take care of your body and feed it regularly. If you eat normal-sized meals and get moderate exercise, your body will be at a healthy weight. You can trust yourself and your body.

Good luck to you--take care!
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