[a_soldier_of_orange]

Hi Ella..

I don't really know how to answer this. Do I wish it never happened? Yes. Of course.
But I feel like I've become more aware, more empathetic - and I feel like I've learned how to genuinely forgive.

The person that molested me ended up committing suicide about two months ago, and at first I was a complete wreck - I thought that I was partially to blame for it. I went to the funeral, and I realized that even though he did awful, awful things - that he was sad and lonely and lost too, and I finally, for the first time in almost 5 years, was able to forgive him and feel some sort of peace.

I feel stronger now that it's happened. If I could go back and change something, I would've told my parents or someone what happened much, much sooner. Not two years later. I would've done something about it, and definitely wouldn't have been as passive and helpless as I was. I don't know how many kids he hurt, and I wish that I had done something about it - just to make sure that I was the last...of course, I didn't..