(im not sure if this should go in here)
I've only had two boyfriends, both being long term friends with me before, and i knew them both inside out (or so i thoguht). When me and my first boyfriend (loosly used... we nevr really kissed properly
) split up we stayed friends and became really close. His best friend then became my best friend and eventualy we became really close. I knew he wasnt happy with himself or his life, and nether was i, and so we helped each other out. When he asked me out i was happy and worried at the same time... he had experience with others and i had nothing. Non of my girl friends new anything about proper relationships, but he knew that and respected it. It was great for the first month, he didnt presure me or loose his temper at hwo slow i wanted to take things. Then cracks started to apear. He told me he has waited for me to be "normal" (meaning that i had 'stoped'
sh) and that he didnt want me to wear makeup. He wanted to go further than i did, nothing major but i wasnt comftable with it. Nxt he started loosing his temper and shouting at me infront of my friends, and i would have to apolagyse for somthing i thought i hadnt done wrong. One day he was playfighting with a friend and lost his temper. Instead of taking out on that person he pinned me by the neck infront of a full house. I've nevr felt so helpless or embaressed. I couldnt be near him anymore without a friend there for fear of him loosing it. I would make excuses up so i didnt ahve to see him. When i finaly got the courage to end it i asked if we could still be friends.
A month after he stopped talking to everyone who was his friends, and his mother blamed me for his deppresion. His mum apolagized and i know why he was like that but now i cant trust most men and have to think if im safe with them around. I knew him for years and i still hadnt seent hat side of him... what about others who ive only know for months?
i was wondering if anyone else has a simular problem and if so how do you cope with it?