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Ye I dont fully know how it works myself, but Im coming out of it. Hostile's probably a better word also.... cos anger is a deep feeling, hostility I'd say is more shallow. There'd be times when I just knew something was fking wrong with me... I still remember when I went into a corner shop once and this guy was stocking up shelves with his back to me and didnt hear or see me asking him to let me pass.... and I just felt like kicking him out the way in a temper. The more fked up thing in that was that me and him were reasonably friendly cos we see each other almost every day in that shop (I didnt boot him out the way lol, instead my spine spazzed a bit and that was it, i sort of restrained myself)

All this seems to be passing for now... but I think it's just part of my character. I try to control it. Things aren't so bad, at the moment. If I were u though I wouldn't rely on it just going away. Counsellors can sometimes do a good job of sorting something like that out, or if you have a really good friend that would help also. But u wanna be carefull with friends. Some people dont know how to handle even the smallest of problems, freak out, and move away from you. Its not that they might not like you, they just dont feel comfortable or feel stupid maybe for not having anything constructive to say. Thats why counsellors are probably better... cos they are actually trained to deal with those sort of issues and get more than enough practice at it.