[floatingangel]

hey hey, firstly, i'd say although ppl would less expect a guy to be struggling with such food issues doesn't mean that guys do not face such problems..
don't be afraid to approach a counsellor really. it'll be worth it in the end i promise! i understand how it feels like to can't help but throw up food. and it's really kinda an addiction... you can try distracting yourself. whenever you think about food, about eating it, about not eating it, about throwing it up..... QUICKLY think of something else, talk about something else, play minesweeper or something.
i used to be like this, purging like about 8 times every day and i couldn't stop... but after seeing a counsellor and although sometimes i still can't completely control myself, i'm getting better at it. makes me feel free and life's a whole lot brighter!
it's really great that you're trying to stop. (: so don't give up on that! find new ways, ways that work for you to stop... like think about when are the time you don't feel like throwing up/ starving yourself maybe?
goodluck ^^