[EightEleven91]

This may come across as harsh
You dont want to hurt your boyfriend? Too late for that!
You've caused enough damage, not only to the 'relationship' but to yourself. Wheres your respect for your 'boyfriend' and wheres the self respect?!
You dont 'love' your boyfriend. You dont know what love is. Ok, once? Fair enough, we all make mistakes. Any more and that just signals that you dont LOVE your boyfriend.
If you arent ready to be comitted to somebody because you'd rather be an easy ride for some boy then get out of the relationship.