[CANDLEJA-]

Okay so, I have an anxiety disorder. I worry too much, and I get paranoid at stupid little things.
You can imagine what this can do to a relationship.
But see, he doesn't do anything wrong...he hasn't really given me a real reason not to trust him, but things he's done in his past relationships make me worry. But I'm trying to tell myself our relationship is different, and he has changed since then.
It is so hard telling myself this though when he goes out and drinks, and afosdiufusd I just need help. I need advice.
I don't know if I should break up with him because I get so paranoid, but the thing is that doesn't make any sense because I shouldn't punish him because of my own faults. He loves me so much, and I don't want to throw that away...we've been together since December 2nd 2008.
I need help guys. I really do. I am so confused.
Can someone tell me what to do? Do I break up with him because of my own paranoia and anxiety, or do I stay with him and endure the pain I feel for no real reason?
He doesn't want me going on meds, and I've tried councelling and it does not help. I just don't know what to do...