[Stephanie]

Hey there Mary,

It sounds as though you've got a quite of a lot of things going on for you and this stress is having a very negative impact upon you.
Especially because you're suffering from suicidal thoughts from time to time and because you have bipolar disorder, I think it's very important to try and get your anxiety managed as soon as you can. Talking to your psychiatrist about these issues could be very helpful and allow you to learn some coping methods as well as considering any medication or therapy that may help you. You don't deserve to have to suffer with this anxiety and you do deserve to get better and feel happier, Mary.

Take care of yourself.