[xBEAUTiFUL__crisis]

I just broke up with my boyfriend of two years...

We were making plans of moving out of our parents' homes together a few days ago. I didn't tell anyone except my sister because I don't get along with anyone else in my family, so screw it they don't have to know until they see me packing my bags. He told his mom, who didn't like the idea but agreed to "give her approval" if he ended up going but that his room would be kept for him in case he returned. We all assumed the whole thing ended there so whatev's.

Today I go on Facebook and I see she posted something on his page, basically saying "not everything that shines is gold, you'll realize you're making a huge mistake." Suspicious. So I go in her page and I see she posted a whole bunch of negative things about this supposed "parasite." More suspicious. I went to his sister's page and the dookie hit the fan. She's got a whooooole bunch of stuff calling him out and calling the so-called "parasite" out, saying he's always making mistake after mistake, dedicating him music videos about how love is blind, just... really hurtful things.

I felt like crap. Seriously. I've been nothing but a good person to his family, even though I've always known his sister is a hypocritical bitch and his mom is also a bitch, except of the more sophisticated variety. Always kept my silence and took all the indirect insults, took the direct insults from his stepbrother who thinks he's the smartest person to walk the Earth...

Like... really? Is it absolutely necessary to publish on an extremely social website that your son/brother is "making the biggest mistake of his life" and "leaving with a loud-mouthed, low-class parasite"? Enough is enough... my dignity comes first. I've taken too many blows and served as a doormat long enough.

Unfortunately... I love him. I've never felt like this for anyone. I can't visualize myself without him. I can't stop crying, I can't fall asleep as much as I've tried, it feels like a truck ran me over. Just... how can I possibly get over him? I don't have any distractions. I don't have a job and I don't study. I'm at my house all day, cooking and cleaning and being a "parasite." I'm so lost and I don't have any friends, so I'm extremely alone. What can I do? Should I just get back together with him? But then I'd have to shun even more people than I already do... this is so confusing.