[xxpaigiexx]

Hey Ryan,
I think the first step of changing is wanting to change, so you've taken that first step.
It's good that you can see all of the things that you need to change in your life.
There's nothing wrong with doing a plumbing apprenticeship but if this is not the career you see for yourself maybe you need to look into going back to education, there are lots of part-time courses that you will find allow you to study and work at the same time. Think of the things that make you happy and something you're good at, that might give you some good ideas for different industries you might want to go into.
Or maybe you could find a short-course to give something new a chance and see if it's for you.

Drinking can make lots of people aggressive as alcohol effects different people in different ways, maybe you should avoid going to parties at the weekend and try and make a better use of your time. I'm not saying you shouldn't socialise, just find different things to do, you can still go out it just doesn't necessarily need to involve drinking. Sometimes it's hard to get out of a partying life style because you know so many people who do exactly the same thing every weekend. Think of some friends you have that usually do calmer things over the weekend and maybe you could try going out with them occassionally, you might find you enjoy that more or do a mixture of the partying and going out with other friends who do different things.
I think the violence after you've been drinking is not a good thing and alcohol probably does bring out your violent streak more. I know it's hard when someone says something to annoy you walking away is easier said that done but it does make you the bigger person if you're able to walk away without getting physical.

I think it's only natural for you to want a girlfriend and want to experience love. I can say that I've never experienced love either. I think for you to get a girlfriend you need to show people your softer side and show people you're not all about drinking and fighting. I think the places you go usually reflect some of the people you meet. Going to parties is only going to encourage you to meet girls that might now always be the kind of girls you would settle down and have a relationship with- not to say all party-going girls are whores or anything because that is untrue but everyone seems to do things they wouldn't necessarily do when drunk.
I think you should look in other places to meet girls.
I am here if you ever want to speak.
Love Paige xox