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In the midst of breaking down? or completely engulfed in the break down. - April 7th 2010, 06:14 AM

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i can hear every noise. i can hear my ear drums. i can see the air above my head. my hand look puffy and my arms look plump. i can feel my brain working like a computer hard drive...i need to be emptied. i need to be clean. i'm too full. i've been self harm free for 3 months 6 days... i want to open my skin and let the dark shadows choking me release.. my lungs are breathing but i dont feel like im working them. my head is aching...
i don't know whats going on???
i know i won't self harm, i promised him, and my friend i wouldn't let them down.. i should want to do this myself and not for others...

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