I'm Sorry. I know sometimes things sound really hard and that nothing will ever work out. Things will get better. If you need a way to try letting out your feelings try writing them down and burning or ripping the page.
Sometimes you need things that can release your anger so you don't feel like your bottling them up. I know i have bottled up my feelings and sometimes all that does is make things worse. Do you have anyone you can really trust and talk to? Please let me know. I want to help. Please PM