[shaytaan]

i know how you feel everyday its constant beatings my dad tells me to man up but idk if i can take it anymore its been happening gradually getting worse since third grade and its horrible just aaahhh i can't take it if they're not argueing w/ each other their taking it out on me idk where the beatings are gonna come from or when or by who they just come and my skin is dark so noone can see them and they laugh about it and i hide in my closet all the time so they don't find me and beat me and call me really bad things or say they hate me and i'm a failure and weak and the worst part is they've been doing this for years and just a few weeks ago i found out it was wrong they convinced me that it was normal i deserved it i still think i deserve every kick punch scratch knocked down to floor or when its just to much and it all goes blank as i get beat on i don't remember any of it and it just hurts...... and i still love them too its just when everytime my mom does something nice or friendly i remember all that anger in her face..........