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Name: Alex
Age: 27
Gender: Female
Location: England

Posts: 150
Join Date: November 10th 2009

I don't want to leave the house.. please help :( - June 17th 2010, 08:20 PM

I'm so ugly. I'm repulsive. I'm ugly to look at and I have an ugly personality and I'm just so ashamed, I don't want to leave the house and I know this is stupid :S
I haven't been to college at all this week because I'm embarrassed and paranoid that people are looking at me and thinking "she's a freak."

I'm on my last chance at college.. I can't afford to get kicked out, but I feel so paranoid there, and have no motivation to go.

I'm just.. I'm such a freak. I don't know how to explain without going into a long explanation. I'm fat and repulsive to look at. I have depression and I don't even know what is going on with it, sometimes I'm suicidal and other times I'm not. I'm so out of control and I can't stand it.

I don't know what to do. I'm so alone. I don't think I'll ever be fixed, because it's just the way I am