[BabyIndia]

Sometimes it's best to talk about it, get it all out of your system, and forget about it, it depends on the kind of person you are, though I wouldn't recommend bottling it up.
I bottled up for nearly a year, frightened he'd kill me if I said anything, then one day I snapped, and everything came out, he was taken away, he couldn't get to me, but he'd already ruined inside of me. My relantionship was shattered, it was like I was broken.

I never dated for nearly 8/9 months, found a guy, went rather well, broke it off and ended up with the guy I'm getting married too, we dont talk about it all the time, but If i need to, Ill send him a text saying I need to talk, and we'll go to bed, and I'll put my head on his chest and just talk. Sometimes I push him away, when he trys to hug me, or touch my arm, sometimes I wont even kiss him, but It's been nearly 4 years now, I've stopped getting flashback's, I don't blame my self anymore, and I can be myself around him, and if I'm having an off day he leaves me alone, or we'll do something fun depending on the mood.

It does get better, they say time is a healer and it really is, you've just got to stop blaming your self, knowone deserves being abused, once you've stopped blaming yourself, your well on your way to "getting better" so to speak.

I wish you good luck, and if there is ever a day you feel like blaming yourself, or want/need someone to talk to, I'll be there. I'll support you, and be the shoulder to cry on and the ears to listen.