[Thirteen]

The most amazing boyfriend anyone could ask for! Well, he had been supportive beforehand too, when we were unofficially dating, but now that we've made it official, I feel more need to brag about it!

The triggering prefix comes here...
We were talking online, and I mentioned last night that I was dizzy. I didn't tell him why, but it had him worried. So, today I told him why I had been dizzy, I guess I had cut myself a bunch and made myself dizzy from such (which I've never had happen before). I thought he was going to freak out, since he wants so bad for me to quit cutting, and eventually self-harm all together. Instead, he tells me he loves me, and gives me a cyber hug.

This may not seem like such a big deal to some, but to me it's huge. I've been dumped for being "fucked up" (to summarize all the problems) before, and out of the 3 people I opened up to about my cutting, and showed the marks to, 2 of those people (both close guy friends, one IRL who has mental illnesses, and one online who was there for me most the time) disassociated from me. They couldn't handle me, they said I was messed up and shit, and fucked off on me.

Jason has been the only one to stay with me through everything, even when he had been up here to visit, and the one night I got triggered and cut, and he saw the next day or so. He just held me, kissed me, and told me everything will be OK. Also, in the few days after, he'd occasionally check on the healing process, to make sure I wasn't making it worse.

So eh, to some, that may not be a big deal. But to me, it means everything.