So it's been a month since I finally decided to abandon recovery. I'm back into anorexia nervosa, my weight's drop again and I'm worse than any time before in these 4 years I've been into
ED. The reason I will no longer try to come over it is it's already killed me; I mean, my heart will never be alright again, my kidneys are destroyed, my digestive system doesn't digest anymore and doctors told me it'll probably be chronic. I refuse to live like this.
Before I'm gone, I'd like to make my mum understand I'm sick, she thinks about eating disorder as a stupid mania I have, she was told by my therapist about EDs, but she doesn't admit I have one.
Do you have any idea to make her see the truth? I don't want her to think I killed myself, but I'm so sick.
I'd like to tell you to never give up on fighting against EDs, don't come up to this point
Stay strong, please.