[taylalatbh.]

I've put this here because I couldn't think of where else to put it, but I'm sure it suits better elsewhere.

I think this is basically just a rant, but hopefully I'll get something good out of the end of it.

Basically, I'm unhappy with the way I look. My facial appearance is really lowering my confidence. And I believe that it's stopping my ability to make new friends, meet new people and progress in life. There isn't an easy way to fix my appearance, apart from surgery which I refuse to have. So I'm stuck with how I look. I don't really mind how I look. But a lot of other people seem to find it funny to poke fun at me, and laugh. I get nasty comments from idiots on the street and abuse online, sometimes. I say it doesn't bother me but I think subconciously, it does.

I need to find ways to raise my confidence and self esteem, and meet new friends. But I feel as though people don't want to know me. I think of myself as a nice person, and I do have friends now who appear to like me, but they don't seem to want to talk to me a lot or see me often. But when we do go out, we have a really good time, then .. nothing. And I don't understand why.

I just don't feel as though I'm moving forward in life. I don't have a good group of friends, I don't get out there, I don't do anything! And I don't know what to do about it. Nothing is easy for me to do, so if I think I'll struggle, I won't do it. So now I'm kind of just stuck here. Not doing anything, not speaking to anyone and not going anywhere. And I've had about enough of it!

I think I'm going to cut it off there, as I'm definitely just ranting now. Cheers guys.