i want do it, i cant do it.
i have people who care about me, who i care about.
but im still hurting, like my cheast is constantly tight, i try not to cry.
cos that would break my mum.
ive got my knife, i know where the pillz are, i want to, but i dont.
im in love with dustin, i dont wanna hurt him,(if u read this babe im sorry)
ive been trying and trying. it started in year 9, its now towards the end of year 11. and im still in pain.
my he hurt me, he didnt just leave bruises, he didnt just knock me out. he broke my soul, made me terrified to be round males. im starting to trust agian, but feeling safe? im not sure i ever will. thanks bro, thanks for doing that to me, i hope you know how much you hurt me, i hope you care enough that it hurts you to think about too.
my dads in aussie im missing him, without dad around my brother is getting worse again. he pushed mum the other night, not to roughly just enough to make me scared that he is getting violent again.
god please! someone save me, tell me what to do! get me out of here before i gt myself out permantly.
