Hi Ella
I know your feeling really bad right now, and the last thing you want to probably want to hear is someone say that your not worthless and there are things to hold onto,so I'm not going to tell you that. What I am going to tell you is that your not alone. That sentence 'I fail at everything.' is exactly what I find myself saying sometimes and I know what it's like to think your worthless so I know that no matter how many people tell you that your not it probably doesn't make any difference.
I also want to tell you that suicide is not away out of this. Again you won't believe this, but it's really important that you do. You feel at rock bottom now because you have run out of ways to cope with the challenges that life is throwing at you. But you can create new ways of coping, reach out and ask someone for help. You don't have to feel depressed. You can be happy. Things can get better. There are times in your life when you have been happier, right? And just because you feel bad now does not mean there will be no happy times in the future.
It's not impossible. You are strong. Just fight through the next few days and it will get easier. I know that is so hard to believe but this is the most important thing to believe in. Don't give up your future.
Faye x