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I just can't take this! - November 12th 2010, 02:34 AM

I am so stressed out and overwhelmed with college right now. And it doesn't help that my way to handle stress is to just ignore whatever is stressing me out, because then it comes back and screams at me because I haven't done it!

I don't like feeling depressed. I don't like having thought that tell me that life would just be better if i wasnt around anymore. I don't like wanting to go to bed and never getting up again. I don't like feeling like this at all.

And I can help it. If i take Inositol it helps me. I want to take it. But my doctor told me that I don't need to take anything for my hormonal imbalance except for my birth control (which i dont start until sunday) but i cant not take the inositol anymore. I've bee on off of it for almost 2 weeks now. I can't handle these mood swings. I cant handle the depression. I cant handle the thoughts. If i take the inositol it all goes away.

But I'm all out of it. And I've been all out of it for 2 weeks now. And my bf refuses to take me to go buy more. He thinks that I need to just get through this. He thinks that I can do it without the medicine. But i want it. I need it. I don't like feeling this way. Its not even a drug! Its a natural vitamin type thing! It helps depression. It helps me! I want it!

I don't have a way to get to the pharmacy unless my boyfriend takes me. But he won't take me. He doesn't think that I need it. But i do! And he can't even talk me through this! He's at work! I don't know what i'm going to do! I'm freaking out. I hate this!