I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. I want to assure you, just to start, that you are
not alone. Everyone feels that way sometimes. I do, too. I have days when I feel completely alone and I'm out with my 3 best friends. People sometimes grow apart. Perhaps your friends just want some space. It's okay for them to have other friends, too.
I know it's hard, but maybe you could join a club and get to know new people. Or reach out to an acquaintance you don't know as well. It's okay to have one or two REALLY good friends. Those are the people you would call no matter what. But then you have a lot of people to just hang out with. Have a good time. Watch a movie. Etc.
As for the
SH issue. Cutting is never a good solution. I've been there. I am fighting it right now. If this is a continual issue, I urge you to seek help. Tell a trusted adult or parent. Anyone you can count on. That's a scary step in and of itself, but I
know you can do it.
It's hard to grow apart from someone and feel alone. I've been there. But you have people who care. People here at
TH, family, friends. I know it. If you ever need to vent or talk, you can
PM me.
I wish you the best. Remember that this
does get better.