[damaged]

I am so confused as you probably read from the title. I want to kill myself all the time, but at the same time I don't want to die. I feel so dead inside, so I figure why not let the actual reality of what should be take over. I mean it's not like I'm not dying already, every one is. I don't even know of any one that would even miss me if I did kill myself. I don't know what to do anymore and I don't know how to keep going.