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Do i have a drink problem..? - May 7th 2011, 12:46 PM

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I guess this fits in here more than any other forum. I used to self harm for 5 years, i've been cut free for 2 years, and for a little while i was really happy, then as soon as i turned 18 i started drinking excessively and sleeping around to combat my feelings, like i think i just liked feeling wanted, even if it was just for a drunken fumble, then i got with my now ex boyfriend and we were together a year, and things we really good, we split up 3 weeks yesterday, and instead of self harming, i seem to be completely dependant on alcohol. i mean i did drink a lot before, and since stopping self harming, i have always turnt to alcohol, but literally the last 3 weeks i've been hammered, i've been taking coke and speed, like literally doing anything to make myself feel numb and forget aobut everything, it's really silly but looking back i think i've always done it and i've always had to have something to help me. I'm just not sure of the line where it becomes a problem, all i seem to think about is my next drink. It's not like one or two drinks, it's literally like a bottle of spirits, and drinking to the point where i have no idea what im doing, i end up having casual sex, come home covered in cuts and bruises. or til i'm sick and pass out.

So yeah my question is, at what point is it too much and considered a problem?


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