i know it's not good. It makes me feel terrible. I just don't know because
1. i haven't been physically harmed in a while ( the hand thing was in june) and i try to stay out of the way
2. i'm afraid people would take my parents word over mine
3. i only have a year left at home
4. i don't want to lose my college fund/trust fund--- i know this shouldn't matter but i plan on med school... i can't afford that on my own
but maybe if i figure out the ptsd is from this... my therapist will have to say something
