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I don't think you know how much that fucked everything up on Friday. I have no idea where that came from... and it really hurt me to have you treat me like that and be so mean. I never saw it coming. When you said how horrible I make you feel, I just was at a loss of words. And I had been so emotionally -there- all week, which is rare for me... until that happened. That just ruined everything. As much as you apologised and told me you loved me, it's going to take a long time for me to be able to look at you the same again, and I apologise for that. But I can't stand the lack of trust. It hurt, bad. I want to forget, but it keeps dwindling in the back of my mind. Even after how great last night was, I still can't forget what happened.