[Alucard]

I wish I could say it was the alcohol that drove me to say yes but I knew that I wasn't as drunk as I claimed to be. I'm taking advantage of you but you seem so happy that I don't want to break it off because of the fear of what you would do to yourself. I feel horrible to just string you along and play pretend but I don't know what else to do.

Why does it always come back to you? I know I can't have these feelings but I feel happier when I get a message from you than from him. I'd rather hang out with you than with him. But I know you don't feel the same and that just makes it worse.