[will was here]

Hi. I guess the first thing I want to say is this is totally unfair to you. It isn't fair that your sister is hurting herself. it isn't fair that she's making you worry. But you have to know that this is not your fault. at this point i think that even though your sister is important and even though you should try to protect her there comes a point where you have to take care of yourself first. you ever hear of the emergencey proceedings on the air planes? Put your mask on first then put on your child's. You need to put on your mask first before putting on your sister's. Try to detach yourself emotionally from her at this point. She needs help but it may be out of your hands. Its so sad but you can't let her drown you. Problems can be contagious. I know you love her. that's beautiful. but you have needs too.

And you know something? when you feel like you can help and it will not hurt you emotionally you should help out. Even if it's a small thing. because every little bit counts. and even when you feel like you are not strong enough and this is too much for you to deal with just look inward and think of all the things you have done to support her. Maybe you kept her company at some time. I can tell you one thing that you did for her. You love her. That's the most important thing you could do! You care for her and you are going to be there for her when and if she needs to go to you to talk or whatever. let her know that. even if she responds in a way that you were not hoping for you are a phenominal person for having that available to her.

You are stronger than you think.....