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Originally Posted by jillian

today is the start (once again) of my recovery. i have to recover. its no longer a thought. i have done terrible damage to my body, im ashamed. i want to be happy. i dont want to deal with an eating disorder anymore. i really need support. i know if i have it i will be stronger. i would love if someone could help me get through this. ill try my hardest. i wont give in. please help

You've come to the right place for support. I'm really glad that you've chosen recovery; that you want to get better and treat your body with respect. You shouldn't be ashamed of what you've done so far, but be proud of what you're going to do to reverse it and change. I'm always a PM or VM away. You can always talk to me if you're in need of someone to talk to or if you just want to chat for a distraction, that's okay too. You're going to get through this.

My achievement: for the past month, I've eaten 2-3 meals a day without a fight and I've not recorded a thing in my food journal. Yay for recovery.