Thread: Triggering (Suicide): The final straw :'(
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Unhappy The final straw :'( - January 3rd 2013, 01:42 PM

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Firstly I'm sorry to everyone that reads this and believes I'm just being a whiney, annoying wuss (I don't blame you I think I am too!). But for anyone that still wants to read this, advice would be greatly appreciated.
I'm not very good at describing my feelings etc so it'll probably sound stupid...
Okay, I suffer from depression and I think about ending things many times every day. Its been getting worse and worse for the past few months and I have a number of plans in place for the end. The absolute only thing keeping me here is I don't want people to hate me when I'm dead. Now though, I've just found out that the welfare person I see at Uni, who I've just started to open up to, is leaving. This is the final straw for me, I can't deal with that too. I hate me, everyone else hates me, so my death would not make a difference! How do you stop yourself going through with things?
Sorry, rant rant rant from a stupid complete waste of space!