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Question Cutting: Relief momentarily, Guilt for eternity - January 7th 2013, 04:40 PM
I hate how cutting quiets the voices in my head and the welled up emotions inside of me. I hate how cutting works better than any other coping skill. I hate how cutting gives me quick relief but then guilt plagues me shortly after. I hate how cutting is a never ending cycle. I hate that I'm addicted to the release that the blade gives me. I am a prisoner to what I thought gave me freedom. I try and try to break free but the chains that bind me to the blade are to strong for me to break. I've been cutting for four years now and I am so tired of being a slave to self harm. I want to quit but everything I try to do fails. I wish I knew how to stop but I don't. Anyone here also struggle with the same thing as me or am I just a hopeless case?

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