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I've recently been through the worst breakup I could of ever experienced. I was with this boy for 2 years and I gave everything to him my virginity first love and all of that. W did everything together for all through high school basically. He decided halfway into his senior year that he wanted to be single because his friends have a huge influence on him. So he broke up with me broke my heart I even tried t commit suicide with sleeping pills and alcohol. Yes it's dumb because I was in such a dark place over a boy. My family only knows of this i havnt even told my best friend . I feel emotionally abused and I don't know how to walk away because I am so in love and I feel trapped because I'm afraid ill never find love again. He went and hooked up with another girl while plaing me at the same time and would lie about being with her. Then he came to my house in front of my parents and made it clear we were getting back together then decided he didn't want me anymore. Then did it again then dropped me again then picked me up again then made out with a girl at a party. He had came to my house the night before told me he loved me and told me not to worry about this girl. Then he told me after I bought a 500 dollar prom dress he didn't WANT to goth prom so one of mygoodfriends asked me to go I said yes. Then I find out he asked his ex girlfriend who he texts all the time to prom. They've been planning on going for a while now and he never told me the truth. I just don't know what to do bc I want to be with him and I love him so much but he's never going to change I'm just afraid to leave and let go we have been through it all together and we still hangout I'm just confused why if he loves me why does he do this to me. I would never. I'm going back to a dark place and I'm seeing a therapist I'm just very low right now I just want someone to be there for me and teller it is going to be okay.

I just want to talk to teens my age about everyday and problems everyone goes through so I don't feel so alone and hopeless all the time. Talking to other people going through the same situation helps a lot believe it or not.