im glad to hear your better

He doesn't have a problem with me, and I hope we can still be friends although even how minimalist that currently is, he is straight unless he tells me otherwise and that is the disappointment I was meaning to convey. I can just be grateful that he cared and understood me at the time and did his best out of selflessness to my benefit to make me feel better and that is how I want to remember him. He knows I am bi, and I don't need to say I love him, I am sure he concluded that himself and for all he has done for me, I just don't want to burden him with any more of my problems, he has done so much even though I did not ask for his pity and I do not intend to cause him further sorrow. Isn't funny how our words are always so good when they come from the heart? Amusing at the least, if I could get a dollar for every emotion I scrawled in my mind or else, I would be a millionaire by now.
Hmm, anyway I took a look at your photos, they're nice, I hope you are feeling well.

Oh, thats a beautiful thought. I mean in a depressing way. If he dosnt realized how awesome you are, then he's not worth your time

These lyrics really describe my feelings at the moment I guess:
"I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?"
And then I think, C'est la vie, Such is life... And I know one day we will meet again, he will be married and I will cry. That is the day I will die inside. And I'll meet someone like him, and I will be born again.
Alas, love, what a silly emotion it is indeed; when you feel the loss of something that you never had, that to me, is the cruelty of love; every rose has its thorns...

The song is by Dido, it's called "White Flag", and there is another which also describes the joy he brought to me; "Thank You".

i had no idea what you where going through....i know how you feel. It's kinda like my thing with that dude i love, James, I'll never forget him, but he left and i have no way to talk to him. And no one in the world will replace his place in my heart, not even my boyfriend. And i understand your disgust towards the world. The world is a horrible and crewel place. And i care about everyone i talk with or too. But imagine, every time you come on here, you hope that the person you love the most has come back. I know i shouldn't hope, cause James is gone, but i still do. Cause that's what love's done to me. I once had a friend that striped herself of all feelings, i can tell she's still in pain. I see her once in a while, she's pretty much anti-social. It's not a healthy way to live, and i warned her before she did that to herself, but she didn't listen to me. She was like a sister to me....well...I've completely gone off topic. But i care about you, and im sorry your going through this

I'm so sorry. Recently, I realised I had that definite feeling of love for the only person I know actually cared about me but I can't even say we are friends, just acquaintances... The saddest part is that 'Thank You' can never really express what he means to me, and I know it can never happen...we just seem so distant... And now we are only in 3 of each others classes and I just miss the times I was with him, as our future move in 2 different directions. Perhaps it is time to move on, thinking that some day I will meet someone like him, but he could never be replaced or forgotten, I think I will always have a spot for him in my heart, but maybe I am just exaggerating it all, and it was never like this, maybe it is all too good to be real...
I miss having a good person to know, so now I drown myself in music, the lyrics that share my loneliness.
I'm sorry, but right now I just have so much disgust towards the world I have been thrusted into, knowing humanity can never be perfect. I think I am attached to him, and it is time to move on...
We don't know each other, but I have so many people on here that I know care about me, I care them too.

i miss you

i re-wrote my About me

Hahaha, oh, thank you anyways

2 days late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!