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I had a really bad panic attack experience this weekend which I will share so that I can show you how I cope after a panic attack. I attended a dreaded bridal shower this past Sunday. I really worked myself up into a panic lather about the whole thing. I actually didn’t even realize how much this was affecting me until 24 hours after the shower, when I finally was able to calm down.
I built this shower up in my mind to be something much bigger than it was. It was held by casual acquaintances and neighbors. The block I live on has a clique, just like high school.(Yay) Of course I’m not in the clique and don’t want to be. It’s really crazy to grow up and be in your 40’s and realize that most people never leave that high school mentality. Panic Away

While I don’t want to be in the clique, the sense of belonging and camaraderie would have been a plus for me with my social anxiety. Oh yeah and 2 of the girls in the clique do not like me, which made me feel even more self conscious. Coupled with that was the knowledge that the night after this event, my plan was to further decrease my Klonopin. In retrospect, I really put too much pressure on myself.
I felt completely ‘naked’ and vulnerable going to this event– I brought no ‘just in case’ Xanax with me. Heck I didn’t even bring my phone. My husband did his best to help me see that this was just a few hours of my life and that I would get through it. But this was one of those instances where I let my anxiety get the better of me.