Today I had my first class of college...psychology. I didn't expect much, I mean what first day is anything but going over course outlines and all that jazz.

So the teacher started going over what we're going to be learning about, and I can already tell this class is going to be pretty interesting. There's a whole chapter about repressed memories and another on social anxieties. Just from her reading the outline, my mind went a little crazy and I couldn't think straight.
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OK so im going on holiday on friday and im not looking forward to it cause it means I cant have time on my own and I wont be able to escape and walk/ cycle in the fresh air.
Also my parents and sister think ive been SH free for 4 months when I last cut yesterday. This means that they think that im happy and over my depression which is an utter lie.

The only reason why im going is because we will be doing alot of massive walks so I will be able to loose wieght as ive balloned...

Everything seems to be happening at once.. My boyfriends acting really weird, in a way he's never acted before... All of my friends are really stressing me out with their problems, and I just don't know what to do about it anymore... Its driving me up the wall... And to top it all of, all my mom does since my little brother got home from my dads place, is freak on me for stuff I've done in the past week while he sits on his x-box all day, and does nothing around the house, and yet I still get yelled...