Fuck. I can't get him off my mind. I miss him so much. Why must my emotions not be as numb now that I've seen him? I wanted him to just hold me. I want him to kiss me and just be able to lay in his bed with him again. I miss it all. What the hell is my problem? I don't want him back, but I miss everything that I had with him. I want him to text me back, to start flirting with me again. Why can I not get over him now? I don't get it. I don't understand myself at the moment. Lexi and Brittany are...

I find \my head very confining. I never really think everything out until I am typing, ranting, or writing. It's terrible. I hate it. I don't know about anybody else out there, but it just sucks. I hate feeling numb. I hate that I feel ignored. I feel like I'm going to cry, but nothing seems to happen no matter what I feel like. What is so freakin wrong with me that I must sit here, at the library, typing on the computer to get my thoughts out? And the worst part is that I never know what I am going...