I'm almost not sick anymore!! Haven't coughed since about 5am (it's now after 6pm) and the only way you could tell I've been a bit off is that my voice is still pretty hoarse. But it's all good because I can breathe again and speak without coughing fits and don't have to take a 1.5l water bottle with me when I go out.
I finally got my month's wages from work today (£199 - 40 hours) so I can finally get a couple of things I've been meaning to sort for a while now. I can get the new Paramore...

Everything was going so right. It hadn't in awhile. Now....i don't know....today was just...bad? I wanted to cry so many time, i scratched so many times, i starved myself, and i fought with most of the people i care about; which isn't many. So, now i feel empty and tired and lonely. I just want to sleep but i can't...i want to sleep forever but then i'd miss out on so much.

I wonder if i'm the only one. The only one feeling this way. Well, not knowing what to feel. Should i be happy or should i be sad? Should i keep doing what i do to myself or should i stop? Perhaps, i know the answer. Or i already do and i'm just ignoring it because i'm so use to this pain i feel everyday. Maybe, i am just alone. Even if i am, i should get use to it....

Rosie