Black Hole of Misery:
I'm tired of pretending. I'm really sad inside. I want to feel happy, but I can't. Ever since He left, my depression has been horrible. I feel so numb inside when it comes to happiness. It makes me feel terrible because Kristen (my girlfriend) says she really loves me, and I can't love her as much as she wants me to. I don't know if I can ever love again. I want to love her, I really do, but I can't. I can't love anyone. Sometimes I wonder why I can't love, and then I...