Yeah, I guess, so you only die once as well.

And when you die, there's so many people left behind, and they're so angry, and so sad, even though they knew you were dying. It doesn't make it any easier to let go, and we all just feel like we should live forever.

But you're gone. You're gone somewhere I'm not and you're never coming back. You don't breathe any longer and you don't smile, you're dead, you're only memories now.

Blayne's funeral is streaming...

It's Waitangi Day tomorrow, so I guess I should have a think about what this year is going to be about for me.

I don't know if you guys are aware, but for a long time now I've wanted to work in the medical field or in some sort of mental health. I've decided I'm going to study nursing, but I won't be starting that until next year at the earliest.

So this year. Well, I want to find a job - because I'll definitely need part-time work to fund full-time study. I want to...

Even though I'm STILL sick from whatever it was I got over a week ago now, I was well enough that I was able to go with mom to the mall. It wasn't fun still having this, though; I'm still clogged up and blowing my nose every 2 minutes. But, I'm just happy I could go. I don't get to go to the mall often, so it was a nice treat. Mom needed to go into Penny's to find dad some new shirts, and they were having a big sale on just about everything in there, so I rushed over to take a look at their Dinnerware...