I miss it. The release. It's the best feeling I've ever had. It made me feel sane. That I was okay. It made me feel safe. The pain was gone and I no longer had to deal with it. Only for a little while though. It made me feel good, relaxed, and calm. I could go on like nothing happened. The only thing I had to worry about was the cuts and scars. Sometimes I wish I never stopped. It was my way to let my feelings out. I wasn't hurting anyone. I loved it. It never hurt. It was the greatest feeling in...